Helen ~ Heynen

Okay, so I feel like there has been a storm around me for the last little , actually more like a mini blizzard....and not much of anything has been getting done....some of it has been outside my control and well...some of it has been, so it is time to put my foot down....

It's time to begin at the beginning....it's kind of like a chain of command....when I am not paying attention, I am not acting on....and sometimes I end up getting caught up going in the wrong direction. Until...I realized something's not right, something is completely "out of whack" and it comes time for me to refocus.....and stop backing out of the promise I made to myself.

First those whispers start in ear . . then those whispers get a little bit louder . . .then it taps me on the shoulder. .then it hits me on the arm . . and finally, it hits me on the head with a 2x4 -- all for my own own good of course!

I needed to make a new commitment.....

Have you ever said you were going to do something, and then not do it? I see disappointment in others when I don't follow through, and sometimes I am disappointed in others because they don't follow through. But then I realized that when you cannot commit to your self, others cannot commit to you either.
The fact of the matter is when I do things for other people but not for myself, or every time I back out of a promise to myself (food, bad habits, my workouts) I am telling myself that I am not trustworthy as a leader...and that I cannot be trusted. I am also sending the message that I am not worthy, not deserving .